It's hard to talk about your feelings. But if I knew that there was somebody going through what I did, I feel that it would be my responsibility to share my story in the hope that it can help.
Recently, life has been going amazingly for me, through this I can see how depressed I was last year.
I felt my life had no direction. I was unemployed and struggling with my motivation. I was pushing my friends and family away and not looking after myself; drinking, smoking, eating without thinking about the consequences. Struggling with body issues didn't help. Life gets pretty tough.
But I also know that it’s not forever. Dark states of the mind don't last. It’s so important to have goals and destinations, to have a strong sense of self. If at times it doesn't feel that you are capable then make sure the people around you know what’s going on. It’s easy to bottle up your feelings, but the more open you can be the more people around you can support you.
Nothing lasts forever, and remember that sometimes it takes a while to get there. It can be pretty tough, but once you do you can look back at the tough times and use it as a way to make yourself stronger for the future.
All my love.
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