When you have anxiety, your mind is a battlefield, just waiting for the right trigger.
Each day is a new war, and you are always behind enemy lines.
My mind and body are a loaded gun. That is to say - in the wrong hands, I am a weapon. In the right hands, I have to hope like hell that I don't go off, because at war, it's easier to ignore the safety. But I like my friends without bullet-holes.
In logic, I find my safety; a hasty retreat to cover. Another bullet melted into my skin. Pulling it back from the chamber, before it starts a friendly fire. My brain is wired to automatic.
In logic, I find my safety. The empty click of the trigger. Cigar-smoke barrel of my mouth, fetching excuses. I am a gun for my own protection, but my brain is wired to automatic. I like my friends without bullet-holes.
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